realise that my relationship with this absolutely gorgeous mixed race female is about to end

Been working in Germany
25 June 08

Hard day in the office, my boss has asked me to do a presentation for our partners meeting tomorrow! I’m now officially bricking it……..and it’s in the hotel opposite the Ex.’s work place!!! Do I need anymore grief really!
Got a few hours to pull together some stats and estimate future growth for our department… Agh delegation is the key. I’ll get a couple of juniors to pull it together then wing it through; I really can not be bothered. So as you can imagine most of my day was taken up by this. Instead of being out in the lunch time sunshine drink in hand, I’m at my desk burying away at least I was able to pop into the company gym for a quick workout.
As it is my CEO has a disliking for me after I first joined and had a minor disagreement with him not knowing who he was, lucky I’m good at my job, Head Hunted into the firm I had a proven track record as to my abilities, so my director stood up for me when the CEO came down to have a word about me, can you believe it was over something trivia as a button being undone! I tell you some people have nothing better to do while I’m running around helping your company make millions you want to pull me up on a button……….
That’s it I’ve had enough of the office for the day I’m heading to the gym then home. Got home after gym feeling knocked for six Tyé’s got me on this extreme work out regime to get maximum results. I jump in shower, as I come out I noticed two missed calls and a text message on my phone……checked the number and I didn’t recognise it at all…….well my mind ponders… I check the text and it says

‘Hi I’m just back from
Germany been out there
working what you up to
next week? I’ve missed you’

Now I get to thinking who is this mystery texter? It is male or female, did I know anyone going to work in Germany for a while! Have I been that drunk recently????
Enough of this mystery, I proceed to reply…..

‘I’m totally free, that
Sounds good let me know
When you’re free, how
Have you been? .x’

Taking a gamble I don’t know if this person is male or female I’ll add a kiss to feel for a response from them, YIKES!!!! Hope it’s not an old male acquaintance wouldn’t want to send out the wrong signal……..waiting anxiously for a reply I pick up my weights and lift to take my mind off of it.

Message tone!!!
‘Waste of Time, waste of Time,
You’re just a waste of time,
You go your way and I’ll go mine’

Downloaded the new message tone from Snoops’ new Album Ego trippin’

I’m good thx work has
been taking up most of
my time. I can do lunch
on Monday but can you get
over to Knightsbridge I’ve
booked us a hotel was
hoping we could pick
up where we left off. T. x

WOW I can’t believe it! It’s Tracey,
Tracey is an amazing Graceful, Beautiful, elegant and Independent fully matured LADY, of Greek origin with no issues or baggage, T, my nickname for her, has long black hair which she wears straight or curly. She wears it straight most times the way I like it, running my fingers through her hair strangely feels comforting to me! Don’t ask. She’s tall about 5’8” she works out a hell of a lot and has an amazing figure that makes most men drool as she passes them by, no joke this lady is FIRE!! she has such a firm body she works out at least three times a week (not having any children at our age you can do things for yourself more) she has exemplary standards in life and lives in the country but stays in London during her working week. I had the fortunate opportunity to met T at the beginning of the year when things were falling apart in my relationship, my partner had gone out for the evening and came back past midnight drunk as a skunk totally incoherent, as she collapsed on the bed I started undressing her to get her in bed.
As I was turning her round to take her dress off I noticed some white stains on the back of the dress there was no possible way for her to reach this area and speaking from experience I knew……….
Now I’m sure all you highly sexed people and even not so highly would know what body fluid looks like on stained clothes especially black you can not mistake it!!!
I did question her but just got a cold defensive wall and thought there is no point in thinking I’m going to marry this kind of person with all their sub standard morals, issues and problems.

So the next week to relieve the tension I felt about another failed relationship with a distressed soul that I tried to help, I thought I’d go out with my work colleagues as it was one of the younger guys birthday and have a good time as I was feeling rock bottom in my situation of falling for someone who is so self destructive and had ruined every relationship she’s been in by sleeping around with people she didn’t even like. I went out just to have a good time, but you know when a lady sees a guy having a good time it attracts her to him. We’re getting quite loud and order another bottle of Laurent Perrier Rosé, with a round of tequila chasers’ with salt and lime, Tim, Matt, Françoise, Tyé and I were really getting into it, laughing and joking getting merrier and merrier. Then Tyé and I noticed we were being watched big time by two extremely pretty Ladies, I felt complimented that such a beautiful lady dressed the way she was, was smiling at me in an intently manor……..
I ignored it at first but then smiled back as she was so gorgeous, elegant and very lady like attributes at all times. Pleasantries began back and forth, a smile here a look there, it seemed strange at first as we seemed to like each other but we weren’t making an outright pass at each other. This went on for a while as our interests was with having fun with our friends. Françoise and I were talking about our partners and the way they make us act by the things they do, Frankie for short is a gay Parisian, works out a lot and keeps in shape, a really nice guy who is always in a happy go lucky frame of mind. We both agree at the moment we are going to leave our partners if they do not buck up their ideas.
Francoise is shocked that I am so freely speaking and how confident I seem, in the office I keep my head down and work until it’s time to go. I come across quiet and innocent which is a ploy on my behalf, as I like to let people think they have the upper hand but I’ve always been brought up to hold back and sit in the background seeing everything and letting others make the first mistake, then prove them wrong.
I just thought about what I’ve said to Frankie and realise that my relationship with this absolutely gorgeous mixed race female is about to end as I don’t like the way she is so closed off from people. I knew from the start when she could hardly ever be bothered to visit complaining it was too far, (far being 6 stops in 20 minutes on the tube). For the fact that she’d go out of her way in previous encounters for gratification. These actions showed her level of respect she had for the relationship, I didn’t say anything as I wanted to make a go of things and hope in showing her that I wanted to be around her I would sacrifice my life and live in her world.
I’m fast to act on instinct and after this realisation I look at Tyé and he knows exactly what I’m thinking, I grab my flute of Pink Champagne and walk over to the two lady’s that have been exchanging smiles and glances with us. I walk right up to the long dark haired lady and tell her how struck I am on her elegance and beauty that I had to introduce myself. Greeted with a seductive smile and an invitation to seat with her and her friend I decline and offer to buy her a drink and explain that I am with my friends and do not want to be rude, but you’re more than welcome to join us. She’s a bit unsure how to take this, the reason I do this is to see how females or their friends react. If they are just squeezing a drink it will be easy to tell what they are like by their or their friend’s actions. I admit it does leave you open to be abused but that’s life and women, you have to spend money to weed out the bad from the good. Tyé trusted as ever is entertaining her friend, mutual introductions proceed Tracey, Tyé, and unbelievably Sharon. I burst out with laughter receiving looks of confusion…..

’Sharon and Tracey’
I say with a chuckle.
‘You having us on’
What’s the chances of that a real life Sharon and Tracey. They begin to prove me wrong Tracey pulls out her driving license and true enough in Bold type Tracey --------- .

Apologises in mind I order a bottle of Laurent Perrier Rosé, and offer our invitation to them, Tyé is looking at me like I’m mad, as we are going to leave these two beautiful ladies, after buying them Champagne. Bottled ordered Confusion all round I head back o our table. En route, I explain to Tyé watch they will come over but he professes to me that I’m mad… I laugh and sit back down and proceed to join my friends in their antics again, Matt has started a game of 21, it’s a drinking game that involves you shouting numbers in orders that can be changed or substituted for anything else. Laughing away with the guys I can see our new friends are discussing if they should come over or not. I see Tracey pick up the bucket and her glass and head towards us with Sharon in toe, she shimmies round to me and asks if they can join us, we make room for them and explain we are not carrying anyone out and the condition is they play out little game, greeted by chuckles of laughter. T and Sharon profess that they will drink us under the table and that was it. A round of tequilas was ordered and we must have played 21 for about 3 hrs drink after drink, we were plastered laughing and falling about all over the place. Matt had arranged to meet some girls over in Carbon and I invite T to come with and I was hoping Tyé was doing the same with Sharon. All set we head over to Carbon staggering trying not to look drunk, once inside T and Sharon are straight up to the bar and order a round of tequilas, Frankie got the chasers and we hit the floor. I’m totally not thinking about the time and anyone waiting for me:

DÉJÀ VU!!! Hits me……………..To Be Cntd